I have seen “clean eating” designed as everything from a cock-full-o-meat paleo diet, to a vegan diet and plenty of eating plans in between. I’m “good” if I eat some broccoli, but “bad” if I eat it with cheese sauce? (Image Credit: Instagram/goop)

Celebrity Diet Culture: Just Stop Already

With celebrities suggesting that people eliminate entire food groups in the name of “cleansing” and/or “eating clean," Dr. Jessen comments: “I’ve had many, many patients, so many of them teenagers, convinced that their healthy lifestyle and their clean-eating regime was really helping them when actually all it was doing was helping them hide their increasingly disordered eating and to cover up an underlying eating disorder.”

My every decision was based off of whether I was having a good body image day or a bad one. Unfortunately, 99% of them were bad ones. Image: Kyle Broad/Unsplash.

Thinking Of My Body As Not My Own Helped My Relationship With It

I would wonder if others saw me as “super healthy” or as a “fit chick” — or if they had those thoughts at all. I was constantly consumed with every minute detail of my lifestyle, wondering if it was going to take me closer or further away from my ideal body.

I’m terrified that my daughter will end up like me. Image: Thinkstock.

I Say I'm Recovered From My Eating Disorder, But I'm Living A Lie.

[CN: ED (binge eating), orthorexia]

According to the standards of the health and fitness industry, I was doing everything right. Image: Christopher Campbell/Unsplash.

When Your 'Healthy Lifestyle' Becomes A Disorder

[CN: eating disorders, thinspo] It’s easy to disguise disordered eating when it's become standard to mask a binge as a “cheat meal,” orthorexia as a “lifestyle,” and exercise addiction as “beast mode.”

When I finally gained weight, I realized that my value and self-worth didn’t change at all. Image: G Stanley Photography (L); Maddy Moon (R)

3 Reasons Why Gaining Weight Is Not The End Of The World

My biggest nightmare came true. I gained weight.

The thing about exercise is, it doesn't present like an illness. Neither does dramatic weight loss.

That Time My Eating Disorder Broke My Leg

The thing about exercise is, it doesn't present like an illness. Neither does dramatic weight loss. Suffering is revered. Pain is praised. The more I endured, the more I was. Marathon training, riding my bike 10 miles a day, lifting weights for 45 minutes, running the stairs at work: I was "dedicated."