birth

[CN: PTSD, pregnancy, birth] Something snapped inside me and I was transported backwards in time.

[CN: PTSD, pregnancy, birth] Something snapped inside me and I was transported backwards in time.

[CN: childbirth, pregnancy] "You're asking for C-section? You?!" [my obstetrician] almost shrieked.

I was lucky I didn’t have a c-section. I was lucky he was born, healthy and huge at 10+ pounds, with two hefty pushes. I was lucky. I sobbed anyway.

We do our best as parents, but there is no plan or prediction that can determine how your relationship with your children will be, grow, and change throughout the course of our lives. That is one of the most unpredictable things in parenthood.

We spend a lot of time thinking about our bodies; our faces, our fat, our bellies. We love them. We loath them. This is a tale of ten tummies.

No one ever really tells you what it’s like when the magic of pregnancy has become the sometimes-not-so-magic of postpartum. This is my postpartum reality.

"... I allowed myself to be loved by a wonderful man. He adored me, but I still couldn't feel the same way about myself."