Kristi Pahr

I’m lazy as hell, you guys. I know it’s true and I’m not particularly ashamed.

I’ve been pregnant three times, and I have two beautiful, amazing, awe-inspiri

2016 sucked. If we can’t agree on anything else, I think we can all agree on at least that much.

Soundgarden was part of something bigger, something that changed everything.

I have to go shopping tomorrow and I’m dreading it.

My version of self-care is a little less “best life” and a little more “no life”, but it works for me.

I feel like if I’d started earlier, had my first kid at 28 instead of 34, maybe I’d be a little less tired right now. Maybe I’d be a more fun mom if my knees didn’t sound like small arms fire every time I tried to run with my son. Maybe I’d be a better mom if I was younger. But I don’t think so. My kids? They’re awesome. And I’m the mom they have, so I must be doing something right, old or not.

I know how it feels to not contribute financially to the household. I know how it feels to be completely dependent on someone else for my financial stability. I know how it feels to know that if something dreadful and unthinkable happened, I’d be completely destitute. And it’s terrifying.

Life looks a lot different at 40 than it did at 25, and I have a whole new list of things to worry about. It's a very long list, and it makes me anxious on the best day, plain terrified on the worst day, and on a run-of-the-mill day, it just keeps reminding me that I'm clueless about what to think and what to do and how to be grown.

It seems like everyone is an introvert these days.